New Bright Life ...

why i choose these word to be my title?

yes, because i finally realize how am i supposed to be thankfulness to Allah who gives me many things i need in this life.. i’m easy to get somethings that i need, great education, money to buy anything, vacation, and more.. beside i’m so thankful that i was born in my religion (to be moslem), i have super lovely big family, lovely parents and brother, and so much friends..

in this time, i look down to peoples who doesn’t have anything that their need, difficult to have education, not having much money to eat.. 

my heart was touched when i saw one of my family totally different from the past. makes me thinking, how im so easy spending a lot of money in one day, buying things that i dont actually need it, but in the same time my family has suffered to survival, heard that money that i’m wasting easily, it so meaningful for them.. everytime i remembered it, i like want to cry…

i need a mirror to reflecting myself..

looking around for another who needs help.. 

and still praying, if someday Allah would gives me more sustenances, i want to help each others, especially my family.. amin..

hello readers„ 

i sure that someone out there who always wants to get some news from me still arounding my personal blog„ keep stalking and being copycat forever, hey you! 

in a few days ago, i felt angry finding myself didn’t have any activities or anything to works„ it so boring when i get myself watching more korean movies drama in whole day.. but i really donno what i’m gonna do after.. 

the situation makes me tired to look at people around me„ some of friends behavior really bothering me… some of my friends hobbies are just complaining about their life all day long.. in the morning she making a state, thar she’s so lazy going to wake up, lazy to work, got a headache, not feeling well, and bla bla.. and in the afternoon she will write different state like she feel so sleepy, and keeping talking about her boss.. aarrgggg… so i made a quip state for her… when you complaining your life in the morning like a stress„ then you’re going crazy in the afternoon… hahaha.. 

a lot of people bothering me in this month.. and yeah.. i found someone who is my friends doesn’t have any respects to others„ she just care about herself.. fortunately she have lot of money, so she can always showing off how to spent her money as well„ doesnt she ever think that is so BORING? and nobody will cares… 

and oh yeah, i’m catching someone who become my fan.. who always copy paste my state to her facebook or twitter.. she just donno how to create some of phares as well as i did it.. hahaha.. she made a mistake because i know what i surely made, and i don’t ever wrote anything in my facebook again, so i just writing in my twitter„ and i don’t have any followers who can stalking my timeline„ so she just caught up! silly her.. isnt she knows she’s so annoying…. really annoyiiinggg…. rrghhhhh……. 

because is my personal matters, i think is free to write anything in here.. am i have to say sorry of my sarcasm words? just make your own..!

-RU

it just some of narcistics part of me, haha

today i wanna share a few facts about me

• first, i’m a sherlockian (sherlock holmes addicted) 
• Ailurophobic (irrational fear of cat)
• Vector addict, an amateur of photoshoper
• japanese food lovers
• korean and japan dorama lovers
• western tv series lovers
• Psychologist on the way
• love kids under 3 years old
• allergic to dust, cold air, and pineapple
• love matsuyama kenichi, adam levine, benedict cumberbatch, channing tatum, kang ji hwan, and hyun bin (don’t ask why)
• dream-catcher
• sanguinic-melancolic-choleric-pleghmatic (have a high score in needed to change)
• had 2 times deeply-broken heart from different boys
• search for future husband
• worst in mapping
• hate people who always complaining her life
• empty-head

hellooo..

this week i start my clinical internship in old’s house while that place shaded by social ministry.. yesterday i met the head of that place and woman who work directly to handle the grandmo and grandfa who live in there…

first time i’m being there, i’ve fallen love to that place, i saw the old’s man who playing tennis and meet the grandmo in wheelchair with her nurse arounding the street, and the grandmo smiling to us (i’m with my internship partner).. 

in my deeply heart, i sad to see their live in such a place like that, i also questioning myself, why his children abandoned him to there? or is he have a child who should taking care of him? many reasons i heard from the social workers, but mostly who lived in there is a homeless old’s man, who doesnt have a home and their child is too poor to handle them.. 

today, i acquainted with 2 grandmos, and we have so much quality time, the first grandmo telling us about her youth periode, she likes a boy, and have so much boy friends, we laugh together, she’s so niceeeeee… and the second grandmo telling us her concription, she loves to sing and dancing, she almost win every event in the old’s house.. i see the happiness in their eyes.. it makes me miss my grandmother in bandung.. i love her so mucchhh…. 

if you ever have the same problems with me, when all your moods defined by making a state in your media social, blowing every single tragedy happens to you, and become a super drama queen… oh yeah, what the hell people doing, people even never think twice to showing up herself, and the big problems is WHO really care of these? and i get myself becoming one of the dozens peoples who annoyed people around by making those bullshit stuffs..

i knew, when the founder of facebook or twitter have a super big heart, to make people communicate as easy as right now, the one who make mistakes just the peoples who using it.. troubles comes when a jerk (whom i dont really care) writing in his facebook about his story of life with more ingredients, and i believe he must show of his life and wanna make some intentions from others.. i do, yess i do it before.. people do it before too, right!? and yes i still do it sometimes when my brain having no controlled.. but believe me again, you dont make any intentions! you just fooled urself , people doesn’t care at all..

heart changing every seconds, and i don’t know the rules of these.. in the first i really in my good mood, then i open my twitter, and looked one state mentioned to my ex, trust me i becoming annoying in one second too.. what people doing?? why have to mention him?? Is she dont know what i feel right know?? she’s supposed to be me to felt like this??….. and i am a crazy person blaming others like that! the one who has controlling the mood is myself! am i have to blame twitter too? and losing my consciousness?

when a friend making jokes to another by (again) using state in media social, is she ever think, that the jokes isnt funny to a few people? and her state just making a mess in her friendship? and am i blaming to others again?? be carefull to using media social, it maybe would ruin your real life… use it rightly!

i wrote all kinds of the word, just because i’m tired protected my mood from media socials.. why peoples dont using it in the right functions? and why i must really taking care of my mood from annoying states in my timeline? and why people always blowing up his personal’s life? isn’t he tired too as i am?

just ignore what i write, it just for myself, for making my brain wisely to not write it in twitter… :D

wohoo it’s been a year when we’re broke up..

and today i taking look a little of ur news, just few states you made..

glad to see you again, u’ve become handsome more days..

whatever happens between us lately, i’m happy to see you alright

you are still my past happiness, i never regret with those all facts..

and now, i’m happy too and so missing you..

hope when i already fix my heart without any pieces left for you

we’ll become a friend again.. 

take care, gorgeous.. :)